Alice’s Ocean

A reflection on how we face our own shame.

  • I carry the weight of whispers in my chest
    A tide of guilt that never lets me rest
    The mirror's edge, it cuts, it stings
    A face I don't know, a song I can't sing
    The waves rise high, I'm sinking low
    Where does it end? Does anyone know
    Where do I put my shame
    In the water, let it take my name
    Clean me, rinse me, wash over me
    A glimpse of who I'm meant to be
    My hands still shake, my breath runs thin
    A battle rages deep within
    I see their eyes, they see through me
    Can I be whole, can I be free
    The waves pull hard, but I let go
    Will the ocean cradle what I've sown
    Where do I put my shame
    In the water, let it take my name
    Clean me, rinse me, wash over me
    A glimpse of who I'm meant to be
    They gather near, their hands like tides
    They take the weight, the ache subsides
    It's not the end, the storm still calls
    But I hear their voices through the squalls
    Where do I put my shame
    In the ocean, with the waves, no blame
    Clean me, rinse me, wash over me
    Together, we'll face what's meant to be

Jadis’ Gift

Jadis’ Gift is a reminder that not all gifts are what they seem.

  • You left your friends I said they'd lie
    The world's too sharp I made it right
    I turned the noise into quiet nights
    But you keep staring at the cracks in the blinds


    I've held you here I've kept you small
    The outside world would let you fall
    You need me now I've built your cage
    I calm the storm I ease your rage

    It is always winter It is Jadis' gift
    No one calls no one drifts
    I gave you peace I gave you ground
    Don't you see? You're better bound

    You say you're lost but I made you whole
    I shaped the edges of your soul
    You think they'll care you think they'll stay?
    The world will break you walk away

    I see your eyes they search for light
    Ungrateful heart it burns too bright
    Don't test the ice don't take the leap
    The fall's too far the pain's too deep

    It is always winter It is Jadis' gift
    No one calls no one drifts
    I gave you peace I gave you ground
    Don't you see? You're better bound

    I erased their names from your fragile mind
    I shut the door I drew the blinds
    They didn't care they let you go
    I'm all you have it's all you know

    It is always winter It is Jadis' gift
    No one calls no one drifts
    I gave you peace I gave you ground
    Don't you see? You're better bound

    But I feel you slipping a breath of fire
    Your restless heart your quiet desire
    You'll find the door you'll leave the room
    But winter waits it always looms